At least I only had cramps for like an hour today, which was a nice change from last cycle.
I am also happy that my cycle was 26 days.
Still just trying to be patient until December 10th gets here.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Not so good news.
:(
I don't want to write this right now.
I am basically just forcing myself because if I don't then I might forget certain details.
I finally called my doctor's office this morning to see if they had gotten Chris' test results back yet and she just finally called me a little while ago.
In her words, " There is definitely a major male factor present here." And this is probably why I am not getting pregnant. His count is phenomenal...350 million this time. But everything else just looks terrible. Less than 5% of them were Grade A swimmers, so he has very poor motility. She says, "In fact, 70% of them were not even swimming at all." They want at least 50% swimming. And as far as the critical morphology which was what they really wanted to look at, only 1% of them were good. And to be considered normal they want at least 14%.
So where do we go from here? She wants to see what the urologist says first. I guess they will be able to tell right away if something is up or not. My OB kept bringing up that maybe he has a Varicocele. And then I remember hearing our family doc. say that maybe it is just an infection or something. I am praying that it is one of the two.
If it is a varicocele then he will have to have an outpatient surgery, and then we will have to wait 3-4 months to try again for the sperm to regenerate.
If they don't see anything wrong with him in the visit then we are being referred to an RE (reproductive endocrinologist). She said that they are just way more thorough and will give us all our options and tell us what the chances are of conceiving.
Then she basically said that at this point an IUI is pointless because although that procedure helps motility, his morphology is bad enough that the sperm would just not be strong enough even if it was put up by the egg or whatever. And then she kept telling me she was sorry and that "Her heart goes out to me."
I am just hoping it is something fixable. I guess we will find out in two weeks.
I still have hope. This is just all very frustrating. And depressing.
I don't want to write this right now.
I am basically just forcing myself because if I don't then I might forget certain details.
I finally called my doctor's office this morning to see if they had gotten Chris' test results back yet and she just finally called me a little while ago.
In her words, " There is definitely a major male factor present here." And this is probably why I am not getting pregnant. His count is phenomenal...350 million this time. But everything else just looks terrible. Less than 5% of them were Grade A swimmers, so he has very poor motility. She says, "In fact, 70% of them were not even swimming at all." They want at least 50% swimming. And as far as the critical morphology which was what they really wanted to look at, only 1% of them were good. And to be considered normal they want at least 14%.
So where do we go from here? She wants to see what the urologist says first. I guess they will be able to tell right away if something is up or not. My OB kept bringing up that maybe he has a Varicocele. And then I remember hearing our family doc. say that maybe it is just an infection or something. I am praying that it is one of the two.
If it is a varicocele then he will have to have an outpatient surgery, and then we will have to wait 3-4 months to try again for the sperm to regenerate.
If they don't see anything wrong with him in the visit then we are being referred to an RE (reproductive endocrinologist). She said that they are just way more thorough and will give us all our options and tell us what the chances are of conceiving.
Then she basically said that at this point an IUI is pointless because although that procedure helps motility, his morphology is bad enough that the sperm would just not be strong enough even if it was put up by the egg or whatever. And then she kept telling me she was sorry and that "Her heart goes out to me."
I am just hoping it is something fixable. I guess we will find out in two weeks.
I still have hope. This is just all very frustrating. And depressing.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Now we wait.
Chris dropped of his S/A a little bit ago.
Something I am not sure I understand......when our family doc. ordered the S/A he just dropped it off at the lab at the hospital. The insurance covered however much and then we would receive a bill for $15. No biggie right?
Well then today at this fertility place where he had to drop it off, they made him pay right up front....I was like Ummm NO, they need to bill the insurance. Then they explained to him that it is $140. Our insurance will cover half, and we need to pay the other $70.
Seventy dollars?!!?!!!
Ugh. This fertility stuff is already getting expensive and we haven't even really dove in yet.
In the end I am just thankful we have insurance. It is just a bummer because that is sort of a lot of money. My OB told me an IUI costs $150. I'm like dang, let's just do it already.
Something I am not sure I understand......when our family doc. ordered the S/A he just dropped it off at the lab at the hospital. The insurance covered however much and then we would receive a bill for $15. No biggie right?
Well then today at this fertility place where he had to drop it off, they made him pay right up front....I was like Ummm NO, they need to bill the insurance. Then they explained to him that it is $140. Our insurance will cover half, and we need to pay the other $70.
Seventy dollars?!!?!!!
Ugh. This fertility stuff is already getting expensive and we haven't even really dove in yet.
In the end I am just thankful we have insurance. It is just a bummer because that is sort of a lot of money. My OB told me an IUI costs $150. I'm like dang, let's just do it already.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
So frustrated!
Today was supposed to be the day that Chris submitted his S/A and then went to see the urologist.
First, last night I get shook awake at 1 am by Chris saying, Hey I can't do that tomorrow. I'm like WHY NOT?! We never read the stupid paper that he is supposed to take with him. You have to call the office 24-48 hours in advance and tell them when you are dropping it off. And then you can only drop it off between 8-8:30 a.m. We just assumed it was like the other place when he did it through our family doctor when you just dropped it off whenever. But nope, not this fertility place. I guess they mean business. Our mistake though...he can still do it next week sometime, so while it's highly annoying, it's not that big of a deal.
Well then I get this call at noon. It's Chris, sounding like death, and complaining about how sick he is and how he can't even move because he is so nauseated. Me, being mean and all was like SUCK IT UP AND GO TO THE DOCTOR!!! And then he threw up and such. I guess he is really sick. I feel bad, but man....I had to call and reschedule his appointment. And now we have to wait another month. I am just disappointed. It is weird though. I guess we just were not supposed to do anything about this this month. So frustrating though. :(
First, last night I get shook awake at 1 am by Chris saying, Hey I can't do that tomorrow. I'm like WHY NOT?! We never read the stupid paper that he is supposed to take with him. You have to call the office 24-48 hours in advance and tell them when you are dropping it off. And then you can only drop it off between 8-8:30 a.m. We just assumed it was like the other place when he did it through our family doctor when you just dropped it off whenever. But nope, not this fertility place. I guess they mean business. Our mistake though...he can still do it next week sometime, so while it's highly annoying, it's not that big of a deal.
Well then I get this call at noon. It's Chris, sounding like death, and complaining about how sick he is and how he can't even move because he is so nauseated. Me, being mean and all was like SUCK IT UP AND GO TO THE DOCTOR!!! And then he threw up and such. I guess he is really sick. I feel bad, but man....I had to call and reschedule his appointment. And now we have to wait another month. I am just disappointed. It is weird though. I guess we just were not supposed to do anything about this this month. So frustrating though. :(
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Sometimes you think you are just fine, until......
Until you hear it. Again.
Another person in your life is pregnant.
But I would feel completely different if it was someone else. Maybe if it was someone's first, or someone who had been trying for a while. Or someone like my sister who has been through more pain than any one person should have to endure. But no. Not when it is someone who already has three children. It is so frustrating....why is it so easy for them? Why can't it be easy for us? For my sister? For all of the other women out there who so desperately want nothing more then to have a child? I just do not understand sometimes.
Sidenote here: She is my age (24) and him Chris's age (29). And they are on #4. And we are not yet even pregnant with #1.
I am sorry if this post bothers anyone. I am not trying to be cruel in any way, just venting I guess. Tonight my heart is just hurting.
I know that tomorrow will be a better day.
Another person in your life is pregnant.
But I would feel completely different if it was someone else. Maybe if it was someone's first, or someone who had been trying for a while. Or someone like my sister who has been through more pain than any one person should have to endure. But no. Not when it is someone who already has three children. It is so frustrating....why is it so easy for them? Why can't it be easy for us? For my sister? For all of the other women out there who so desperately want nothing more then to have a child? I just do not understand sometimes.
Sidenote here: She is my age (24) and him Chris's age (29). And they are on #4. And we are not yet even pregnant with #1.
I am sorry if this post bothers anyone. I am not trying to be cruel in any way, just venting I guess. Tonight my heart is just hurting.
I know that tomorrow will be a better day.
Friday, November 6, 2009
Friday Fill-In
Stolen from Krisito Torpedo!
1. Plans and schedules keep me busy and organized!
2. I'm happy when things always come together somehow in the end how they were meant to.
3. The last thing I drank was water. Come on people, I'm at work.
4. One of the most valuable things in my life is my husband, and the rest of our families. Oh, and friends!
5. I like mushrooms, ham, cheese and peppers (and sometimes pepperoni) on my pizza.
6. Dear November, I can't believe you are here already. Please slow down. Although I love the Holidays and I'm excited for them, they go by way too quickly .
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to hanging out with Kerri and going shopping, tomorrow my plans include my race in the morning, lunch with my in-laws and dinner and a movie night at home with the hubs and Sunday, I want to sleep in, but we will go to church and then have our small group in the afternoon!
Happy Weekend everyone!
Oh and P.S. I am still waiting to hear back from my doctor, I wish they would call me already!
*edit* She finally called.....but I missed the call because I am at work and my cell was in my purse. From her voicemail she said that everything looked good but she will go over more in detail when we talk, and also she wants Chris to get another S/A after the 8th...moving forward!
1. Plans and schedules keep me busy and organized!
2. I'm happy when things always come together somehow in the end how they were meant to.
3. The last thing I drank was water. Come on people, I'm at work.
4. One of the most valuable things in my life is my husband, and the rest of our families. Oh, and friends!
5. I like mushrooms, ham, cheese and peppers (and sometimes pepperoni) on my pizza.
6. Dear November, I can't believe you are here already. Please slow down. Although I love the Holidays and I'm excited for them, they go by way too quickly .
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to hanging out with Kerri and going shopping, tomorrow my plans include my race in the morning, lunch with my in-laws and dinner and a movie night at home with the hubs and Sunday, I want to sleep in, but we will go to church and then have our small group in the afternoon!
Happy Weekend everyone!
Oh and P.S. I am still waiting to hear back from my doctor, I wish they would call me already!
*edit* She finally called.....but I missed the call because I am at work and my cell was in my purse. From her voicemail she said that everything looked good but she will go over more in detail when we talk, and also she wants Chris to get another S/A after the 8th...moving forward!
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Doctor's Appt.
So Thursday I had my yearly doctor's appointment with my OB, and it just happened to be at the end of my 12th cycle, so she was very receptive to speaking to me about what is going on here. She said that she definitely thinks that I will be able to get pregnant, just that we may need some help (duh, obviously!) She concluded this after looking at all of my temping charts that I brought in over the past year. She said she thinks that I am ovulating some months but not necessarily all of them, and that maybe Clomid would help with that. She also wanted me to get my blood drawn so they could run a bunch of tests. One of them was for my Progesterone which she said HAD to be drawn on Day 23 of my cycle (ok, why? I guess I didn't really understand this one, but whatev..she is the doctor), which just happened to be the next day. Which I already had an appt. scheduled at my family doc, and that is where I get my blood drawn because they have a lab there. I just keep thinking, seriously that worked out perfectly and was a coincidence or something. Luckily I do not have to wait a whole other cycle and get my blood drawn again. I cannot remember all the tests that she marked down for my labs, but the ones I remember are my progesterone, testosterone and prolactin levels. Also something for clamydia (I think?) I remember she marked that down when I asked about whether or not my tube/s could be blocked. She was like yeah, this test would show that. But let me just say, I DO NOT have that...so I am not sure what that was about. I know there were like 3 more tests. For some reason I cannot find my yellow carbon copy anywhere today, it seems to have disappeared. I was purposely saving it just for this blog post too...oh well.
So Friday I went in to my doctor on my lunch, and then went over and got my blood drawn. And I must mention, I had the best phlebotomist yet. She was amazing, I didn't even bruise. I am still waiting to hear back from my OB about the results. I sorta had the urge to call there today but I am going to wait another day or two. It's not like I can really do anything this cycle anyways, so what is the rush.
Now, regarding Chris. She thought it was super stupid that the doctor made him get another S/A 14 days later. She said that basically they were testing "the same batch of sperm." According to her, a man regenerates a whole new batch of sperm every two months. So yeah, she said that they should have waited two months to get another test. And also, if they did not test his "Critical Morphology" then the tests were pointless because that is what she needs to know regarding fertility. Basically he is going to have to get another S/A sometime next week, since that will be over two months since the first one.
Well that is all for now, hopefully I will get some news tomorrow!
Oh and I am still having cramps again tonight. I have not had them all day. What the heck?
So Friday I went in to my doctor on my lunch, and then went over and got my blood drawn. And I must mention, I had the best phlebotomist yet. She was amazing, I didn't even bruise. I am still waiting to hear back from my OB about the results. I sorta had the urge to call there today but I am going to wait another day or two. It's not like I can really do anything this cycle anyways, so what is the rush.
Now, regarding Chris. She thought it was super stupid that the doctor made him get another S/A 14 days later. She said that basically they were testing "the same batch of sperm." According to her, a man regenerates a whole new batch of sperm every two months. So yeah, she said that they should have waited two months to get another test. And also, if they did not test his "Critical Morphology" then the tests were pointless because that is what she needs to know regarding fertility. Basically he is going to have to get another S/A sometime next week, since that will be over two months since the first one.
Well that is all for now, hopefully I will get some news tomorrow!
Oh and I am still having cramps again tonight. I have not had them all day. What the heck?
Monday, November 2, 2009
Ugh.
So I stopped taking my vitex and B-6 before our trip. Also my prenatals. But the truth is that I just did not want to deal with having to take a bunch of pills with me to Europe. One less thing I had to pack. Well when I went to my doctor's appt. on Thursday (which I will update about tomorrow) I realized that I was happy I quit taking them. I got my blood drawn on Friday so they could run a bunch of tests and thinking about it I was happy that my system would be free and clear and doing it's own natural, true to self thing. That way they can figure out what is going on with me, if there is something going on with me at all. So anyways, getting to the point, Aunt Flo finally came today. So on to Cycle #13. Everyone kept saying, "ohhh maybe you will get pregnant in Europe" etc. etc. I figued it wouldn't happen, but sure, I had my hopes up a little. That is ok though. Ok, back to the point, so yeah it came today and man, did it come in full force. I had some serious crampage going on for like 4 hours. Finally I left work and came home. I have never left work because I did not feel well before. But I couldn't take it anymore, I couldn't just sit there and not move and be miserable. I have pretty much been laying in bed on the heating pad all day long. Then they came back like two hours ago, that never happens....finally they are gone again though thankfully. And no matter how I feel I HAVE to go back to work tomorrow. Well ever since I have been taking the supplements, I hardly have cramps, let alone a bad period that lasts more than 3-4 days....so the only thing I can think is that it is because I quit taking them. I guess I just did not think that my body would react that quickly. Interesting huh?
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