The day our lives changed forever.

Originally written on: Sunday, Jan. 17, 2010

Warning in advance-This post is going to be super long.

I cannot believe I am actually writing about this.

Yesterday, on Saturday, January 16th, 2010 I found out that I was pregnant. Pregnant.
Like I said, I cannot believe it. I still don't. We are very cautiously excited and still in disbelief. I say this because it is truly a miracle. The day before, Chris had spent $40 on clomid for himself, in hopes that it would help his hormones. That Saturday morning, I myself had picked up my clomid, in preparation for our IUI. Our IUI that we were planning for our next cycle. That was going to cost $150 out of pocket. We also have an appointment scheduled mid March to see the RE. An appointment that was going to cost $250. We have been desperately praying that we would not have to go this far and take all of these extra measures, and God has answered our prayer.

When I picked up my clomid on that Saturday I also bought my OPKs for the IUI and some pregnancy tests. I took a nap later when I got home and when I woke up before we were leaving for our "couples night out", I used the bathroom and decided, "What the heck, why not?" I thought it was odd that my breasts were still sore, considering I was about to start my period. I mean, they always hurt after I ovulate, but always return to normal a couple days before the start of my next cycle. The tests are always negative, why should this time be any different? At first it looked negative so I'm thinking big surprise, as always. And the longer I stared, I started to think I was going crazy and seeing things. This was also the first time I had ever used these particular tests so I was convinced that it had to be some sort of a fluke. I stood there for a couple of minutes just staring, in awe, thinking God is this for real? Finally I snapped outo of it and started crying and yelled Chris!!!! He was like WHAT?! And I'm like COME here now!!! He thought I had freaked out because something was happening with one of the dogs or something. So he runs into the bathroom and I'm just standing there, teary eyed, mouth opened holding the test up. He looks at it and looks at me and was like NO freakin way...... at this point I'm like OK, seriously I do not know what to think. Then we laughed, then cried, then laughed, then cried (well I was crying, Chris was just a little teary at first). And then I took my digital because I still did not believe it, even though I seriously had to squeeze out every last drop of pee that was possibly in me. I left the bathroom to quick change since at this point we were seriously running late and Chris took the dogs out. By the time I got back to the bathroom sure enough, it said PREGNANT!!

After this happened I was seriously an emotional wreck for like two hours. I had to tell one of my best friends Kerri, right away since we were hanging out that night. We hugged for a long time. It was so nice. We are not going to tell too many people though, just in case. That is the hardest part because I am so happy, I just want to shout it from the rooftops. The hardest part is not telling our families. We want to wait until we see them, which we will see my family in two more weeks and then Chris' in three. And personally the hardest thing for me is not being able to tell my sister Megan for two more weeks, but I want to tell her in person. We are telling everyone in person, it is more meaningful that way. I cannot wait, and I think everyone will be surprised since this is all so unexpected. It also stinks but I am sorta trying to lead people astray on my blog so that no one suspects anything until I am read to post this.
I also know that I need to go to my OB and get this pregnancy confirmed. She is going to be shocked. I have decided though that I think I am going to wait a little while.

The only thing we did different this cycle was that we took Sudafed. I would take one tablet four hours before, Chris would take 3, and then he would take another 2 tabs 2 hours before. I always felt so bad for him because he complained about how dried out it made him feel. We also did it consistently every other day right after AF ended.

Looking back now there were some things that make sense to me as far as pregnancy symptoms:
-My face broke out really bad, worse than usual.
-My cervical mucus was like sticky and yellow all the way up to this weekend which never happens.
-I have been so tired every day. I hardly did anything this past week.
-One day at work I got really emotional and started crying and two of my coworkers looked at me like I was crazy.
-I was nauseous on and off.
-My breasts continued to stay sore.
-A couple days ago in the middle of the night, one of the dogs threw up in the kitchen, and when Chris cleaning it up I could smell the cleaner all the way into our bedroom, with the door almost completely closed.
-When Chris and I had sex in the past couple days nothing happened and usually it will make me spot right before AF.
-I usually spot right before AF anyways, and I never did.
-I keep feeling insanely hungry.
-I take one zantac every AM for my heartburn. This past week I kept getting it at night too, which is weird and had to take one in the evening as well ( I will not be continuing to do this, but I HAVE to take the one in the AM unless I want to be miserable all day long.)
-Kerri also told me I was acting weird and saying weird things at work, haha.

I have been getting slight cramping on and off the past two days and getting nauseous as well. When I finally start eating it seems to pass for a while. I plan on doing my first belly pic tomorrow at 4 weeks. And hopefully, God willing, they will continue up to 40 weeks.

Welcome to my new phase of life.